Well, I am here again with yet another rant. I simply cannot get on with people. And years of observation have helped me conclude that it's due to my complete inability to talk. Put me in a party, throw me in a group of people or even in the midst of family/friends, I will sit still without speaking much. I am the kind of person who will return from a party being friends with the dog! And even if you get me speaking, it'd be extremely difficult to get a subjective viewpoint from me. For facts and all, I'm bang on - capital of a place, approximate currency exchange, cosmic stuff, mathematical formula, films (I so love them!). But ask me to take stand on a political party and you'd be disappointed.
At first, it doesn't seem so bad. But I've to face it every single moment. Yes, my writing somewhat compensates for the lack. But I got no ears to listen to my loathing, no voice to assure me when I'm sad. I know it works both ways. And yes, I have supported my friends and family in their time of distress. Being an INTP(yes I strongly believe that shit theory or whatever you may call) doesn't help either. I become too much of a self-critic to live up to my own expectations. So here I am pondering over what keeps on people conversing day and night. Maybe, I should take up the challenge and face my biggest nightmare: a date.
At first, it doesn't seem so bad. But I've to face it every single moment. Yes, my writing somewhat compensates for the lack. But I got no ears to listen to my loathing, no voice to assure me when I'm sad. I know it works both ways. And yes, I have supported my friends and family in their time of distress. Being an INTP(yes I strongly believe that shit theory or whatever you may call) doesn't help either. I become too much of a self-critic to live up to my own expectations. So here I am pondering over what keeps on people conversing day and night. Maybe, I should take up the challenge and face my biggest nightmare: a date.
